Sometimes when I look out at my peers, whether it be at chruch, on the street, at Co-Op ect. I seem to be...behind. I feel like I'm disfunctional because I'm not confident about taking myself places all by myself or that I haven't even started community college yet. I doesn't help that I feel like I NEED to be all prepared and super smart cause I've been homeschooled all my life. Truth be told, there have been times where I feel like a bad Homsechool student. I dunno though. Haha...this wasn't supposed to be rant, but I guess it turned out to be that way. After talking with my family last night after Advent really helped and honestly I hope that after this week and getting into the new year I'll be able to be okay with me and my seemingly 'behind' and 'slow' self. God made me this way for a reason, and I need to find how to deal with myself, to get me all figured out. Chances are I'll never completely do that but I'm hoping to get things figured out at least enough where I don't freak out.
Don't get me wrong...I want to grow up! It's an exciting thought, I guess I'm just at a different pace than what seems to be the norm. But that's okay. I'm me. And I need to deal with me. God made me. He cares, and I think I need to just realize that and suck it up. (That was meant to be funny, by the way, like how I'm giving myself a pep-talk, maybe I should just stop here....yeah I will)